Facebook

I have a love-hate relationship with FB. I love it because it allows me connections I would otherwise never have been able to find on my own. I hate it because it allows me connections I would otherwise never have been able to find on my own. :/

I deleted a ton of people yesterday. IV mommies, friends I used to work with locally, new mommies I've met recently in person, people I was friends with because I was also friends with their wife or what have you. I can't do it anymore. My emotional state is such that not only BAD or negative information is hurting me, but the happy stuff is too.

So many moms are having babies when I haven't even ovulated since my back-to-back miscarriages in March. While I am THRILLED for them, I can only handle it in small doses. Two of my very closest online friends have young babies,and I LOVE to look at pictures and fawn over their kids, I just can't do it for everyone. It hurts me to see people buying houses, going on vacation, not dealing with custody issues, and yes, that doesn't mean they did anything wrong to deserve me deleting them, but it's something I just had to do for my sanity (which is still questionable)

And then there is the negativity. The bashing of my close friends, the nasty snarky comments, the posts about deaths in the family, cancer, Casey Anthony, kids with black eyes. It HURTS my heart right now and although in my normal state of mind I'd have more than enough empathy and compassion to deal with it, I am not in my normal state of mind.

My stress levels and anxiety are so high that anything will send the tears pouring down my face, and I can't deal with it right now. So for those of you that got deleted, please understand that it may not have been anything you ever said or did, these are my issues and my way of dealing with them and for now it's helping a lot.